Permanently scarred?

Whew, woke up this morning from a nightmare :(( Probably the nth nightmare I've had about the same recurring topic lately - immigration officers in Bintan asking me to fly back to Jakarta to get some stupid permission again!! Seems I've not quite gotten over it yet. And i have to give up going on a trek to Mt Rinjani this year because i am just so afraid of getting stopped by the officers again... :(

1.5 mths of F.R.E.E.D.O.M.

Mum's finally gone off to Perth for the next 1.5mths! Had been eager for the day to arrive, cuz we just don't seem to get along. Diego'd encouraged me to send her off at the airport and so i offered, well, kinda.. :p but on the night before she left, she really put me off again (is it just an excuse??) and so i decided just to SMS her before her flight :p What happened? Well please tell me if I'm wrong to be upset, but she insisted on locking her room door for the entire period! Why? Because she says she thinks I'm "not trustworthy". Apparently, I'd given her the impression some time ago (she can't remember how), that i am not trustworthy and will do stuff like letting my dad into her room while she is away. Why thanks mum, i really appreciate the lack of trust. And the lack of faith in me as a person.

Strangely, an hour or so before her departure i was actually feeling a twinge of sadness! Totally weird, cuz we seldom communicate when we are together, and when we do, it almost always leads to unhappy squabbles :( But all's well now cuz I'm so caught up with work and my Wolf that i barely have time to think about her! :p Just enjoying no nagging at the moment ;) And i can actually do the laundry without having to weigh it!! Mwhahahaha. :p :p